Another thing I noticed about myself this semester is that I don't live enough. I'm always analyzing and engaging in deep thought about things to actually be in the moment. Even simple conversations I have with people are troublesome for me. I can't explain it, nor do I think I ever will be able to. It's like when I talk to someone, I put myself on the side and watch me talk to them, while critiquing everything I do. I just think too much for my own good it seems. Honestly, the only real reason I do anything productive, from writing papers to picking outfits, is because I force myself. Even then it feels like I go to war with myself. Nothing I do feels natural. I mean the basic things in life like breathing and walking comes natural. But everything else I have to think about. A simple solution to this would be to say, "Just be yourself." Though my counter would be, "How do you be yourself when you don't know who you are?"
"Second Guessing yourself tryna remain sharp"
Streams of Consciousness
- Results of Public Education
- I've found blogging as an outlet for some of my thoughts that I usually can't get out in daily conversations. Small talk never grows to "large" talk it seems so this is a way to express myself somewhat or even to just say what's on my mind.
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