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I've found blogging as an outlet for some of my thoughts that I usually can't get out in daily conversations. Small talk never grows to "large" talk it seems so this is a way to express myself somewhat or even to just say what's on my mind.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Impossible made possible



So for a while I always thought the concept of love really wasn't possible I always thought this just because what I thought was love really wasn't. I wasn't willing to go out of my way for another person (due to immaturity mostly) and I didn't feel a connection like I thought I was. Being in college and having my mind open up to a lot of things made me come to conclusion. BUT, being in college always made me notice things that I like and dislike too. For example, 2 years ago, ladies that I would find attractive, meaning I would have thoughts about talking to them, aren't necessarily attractive now. They still look the same, and have the same personalities and mannerisms and what not, but I'm just more aware of my tastes.

Until a week ago, I didn't think connecting to a person on a llevel to where the word "love" can be used with true feeling was possible. Now I can't necessarily say that I'm deep enough in a connection to say that I can use the L word, but if I keep going down the road I am, I'll definitely see a sign that reads "Love: next 5 exits" or something. What I felt last week was enough to convince me that connections between human beings really exists. All the things like "Looking like a 'cimp' or being afraid to express your feelings and whatnot" honestly didn't matter....If you felt what I felt you'd know what I was talking about...Guess only thing left to do is to take the next step and get this off my chest. word "love" can be used with true feeling was possible. Now I can't necessarily say that I'm deep enough in a connection to say that I can use the L word, but if I keep going down the road I am, I'll definitely see a sign that reads "Love: next 5 exits" or something. What I felt last week was enough to convince me that connections between human beings really exists. All the things like "Looking like a 'cimp'or being afraid to express your feelings and whatnot" honestly didn't matter....If you felt what I felt you'd know what I was talking about...Guess only thing left to do is to take the next step and get this off my chest. 

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