New Dream

I can’t tell you why we have dreams…I mean it seems as if they have absolutely no bearing on what happens in this physical world we live in. But I know the dreams I have, or now I should say had, of you mean something. You were just a dream that got away….It took me years to accept failure, and move on. But then you began showing up without warning, reminding me of something I was trying to forget…somehow I broke out of having to see you when I went to sleep. And for awhile, when I would close my eyes, I would dream of nothing. It may not sound exciting to sleep through the entire night without your mind taking you on some kind of adventure, but there wasn’t a tease of happiness when I closed my eyes, to only open them to a harsh reality where happiness is almost a fallacy. Because dealing with those moments of realizing that what I believed to be real was “only a dream” was torture for me. So for months my mind was free of dreams. Free of disappointment. Free of that reminder of where I failed in life. Free from you. ..But now…I am beginning to dream again. Only this time, you are now gone and she is now you. So to something that could’ve been, and probably should’ve been, I say goodbye. And to the prospect of something wonderful, I say hello. Hopefully these new dreams that I am having will manifest themselves into something beautiful in this physical world…………..Guess I need to buy myself a dreamcatcher….